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During the meeting of mathematics society..Ripon shares a story about a chinese guy and a filipina who had a secret crush on each other. He said "It all started when their teacher ask the girl to sit next to the chinese guy to help him understand some of the tagalog words their teacher will say. Since then, they started hanging out at the library and outside the university. Their feelings grow, the guy wants to tell to the girl that he loves her, but he wanted to say the tagalog word of it,. So he asked his filipino friend regarding the tagalog word for "i love you" the filipino said "ang baho ng kilikili mo". So the chinese guy, practice those tagalog words. and when he finally masters it. He ask the girl to see him at the school. So the girl as well as her friends go,to see him. The chinese guy said 'I have something to tell you, I don't know exactly, what you will feel, I've been keeping this for quite some time now,' the girl (giggles) and ask the chinese guy to say it, or regret it. So out of nowhere, the chinese guy shouts "ang baho ng kilikili mo" and he gets a SLAP...the end...

60 Things Girls wish that Guys knew

60 Things Girls wish that Guys knew

1. Don’t think that just because you didn’t tell us we are never going to find out.

2. Our friends know EVERYTHING.

3. EVERYTHING said to our friends will be told to us. Guaranteed.

4. No matter what we say, we hate your ex-girlfriend.

5. We check our phones every hour to see if you have replied to our texts, then worry if you haven’t.

6. The fact you might leave us for another girl keeps us up at night.

7. When we’re not talking to you on MSN, we’re actually waiting for you to talk to us (in a non-snobby way, we want to see if you still care enough to talk to us).

8. When we act sad, we want you to hug us.

9. Our favourite part of the MSN convo is at the end when you say good bye, because that’s the part you say you love us.

10. We actually freak out on what to do during holidays like Valentines Day.

11. We don’t care what our friends think of you, but we do care what your friends think of us.

12. Yes, you might be the reason we failed that Math’s test.

13. We are very, very scared of scaring you away.

14. We don’t care about what we talk about, just as long as we have your attention for a few minutes.

15. Of course, we do believe the crap we read in magazines.

16. We have mood swings. Get over it.

17. Everytime you’re around other girls, we worry they are better than us.

18. We don’t want to hear how cool your ex-girlfriend/neighbour/best gal friend is.

19. Movies like ‘He’s Just Not That Into You’ depress us.

20. We will move mountains on our timetable if it means seeing you.

21. We compare every other guy to you, and you always come out best.

22. We hate it when you go to discos without us.

23. We hate feeling as if we are like any other girl.

24. Don’t brag about other girls liking you, it just makes us insecure.

25. When we say everything is ‘fine’, it generally means everything is absolutely horrible and we are on the brink of falling to pieces.

26. Don’t just say ‘ok’ when we say we don’t want to talk about it.

27. If you want to know something about us, ask our best friend.

28. If you do not hug us, we will not kiss you.

29. We think you are the best guy in the world.

30.We.Will.Kill.You.If.We.See.You.Slow.Dancing.With.Another.Girl.

Without.Telling.Us.

31. We really do want you to stick up for us.

32. Compliments. We love them.

33. Be on time. We will think you don’t care if you’re not on time at a certain place.

34. Whether you say (L) or luv or love does matter.

35. We don’t care if you couldn’t come on that date because of the most embarrassing reason in the world, just don’t lie to us.

36. We like cuddling up to you so let us.

37. Silent Treatment + Short Answers + Not Smiling or Laughing + Evil Looks = YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG.

38. You will be classed in our ‘Hate’ list if you forget our birthday.

39. Do not ask what’s wrong. We’ll never tell you we just want you to cuddle us.

40. You need to tell us what you think of us, we don’t make assumptions (apart from ‘OMG HE’S GONE OFF ME HASN’T HE?!’)

41. Telling us that we are pretty will mean absolute LOADS.

42. Do not make fun of us unless we are in a good mood. As insecure as girls go, we take these things very seriously.

43. If you do end up doing Number 42, you just have to hope we aren’t in a bad mood.

44. Saying something sweet MIGHT get you off the hook. Doing something sweet will ALWAYS get you off the hook.

45. We never forget things. Ever.

46. We over-analyze everything.

47. We over-react to everything.

48. When we are mad at you, we aren’t actually mad at you we just want you to apologize so we can start showing we like you again.

49. Please don’t stand 384931491329403 feet away from us. Even if we are scary.

50. Please acknowledge that when we are online when you sign in, we probably have waited ages for you to come online so please make it worthwhile.

51. We do not care if 50 000 other guys declared their love for us if you never do it none of it matters.

52. We don’t like being used.

53. We like it when you do un-expected nice things.

54. We usually don’t let just any guy make us cry, so if you make us cry, damnnn you must have done something bad…

55. This is the way it works: You don’t give us any attention, we dump you. It is NOT: You don’t give us any attention, we chase after you. Deal with it.

56. We like it when you are protective of us. It makes us feel special.

57. Unless she is a moronic idiot, a girl who truly loves you will love you for a long, long time.

58. When we come back from a holiday and brag about how awesome it was, during the entire time there we were probably thinking about you. A lot.

59. No matter where we are or what we are doing, we really want you to hold our hand.

60. And please for the love of god shut up about how fit other girls are. You know we like you and the fact you do this despite you knowing how we feel is just evil.

*I was only tagged by Ma'am Butz (on facebook)

My Quiz Results...

I was so bored this day, so i have decided to answer some quiz on candymag and facebook. After answering those questions, I told myself, There's nothing to do anyway, so what i did was, browse all my previous quiz results and post it here. See, I have done something, for me, not to get bored in at least 3hours...hahaha

What Does Your Name Say About You?
Dear KAREN, Your name says that you are mostly: Ambitious but stubborn
Your name also says you are: Inspiring but melodramatic; Passionate but flighty

One Word To Describe Yourself...
You got Reliable. Your freinds can always count on you to do anything. You are also very trustworthy.

What Do People Think of YOu at First Sight
YOU ARE CUTE:People feel like they have to protect you!aww.. you are not so defenceless: show them!

HOw Mean Are YOu?
60% Mean: ... and 40% nice! You're probably a very good person; you just don't like getting pushed around and you don't follow directions as well as you probably should.

What Are You Hiding From tHe World?
You are insecure about your talents. You are afraid that your talents are not good enough, and though you DO have... them, you do not want to share them with the world. You are afraid that if you try for something, you will fail because your talents are not good enough. You may be a perfectionist.

What is Your Weakest Point?
You got loneliness . most of the times u have been left alone in your family or among your friends.

How easy it is to Hurt You?
the ultimate cryer. You cry for every reason. You are a weekling. You are extremely easy to hurt and cry about everything. It's a good thing to cry, but if you cry too much you're eyes will hurt. You should probably not cry so much, but dont hide your feelings either, just dont be so dramatic. It causes people to either feel sorry for you or create harsh thoughs about you. So, try to cry a little less and let out your feelings at the same time.

What about you makes people turn heads?
When you meet someone new, the first thing they notice is your beautiful pearls. Even if they're not the wh...itest teeth or the softest lips anyones ever seen, people still love to see your smile, so don't be afraid to show it off! You are a typically happy person (hence - you smile a lot!) not a lot brings you down. "One of those days" to you is typically a great day, unlike most people, who think of that phrase as a bad one. Long story short - you are very happy and positive and just love life!

Makulit ka ba?
You got Makulit na makulit. sobra sobra ka sa kakulitan, hindi pa ngbubuhos ang Diyos ng kakulitan andun ka na at may dalang timba para saluhin lahat at magpakalunod sa kakulitan.

Gaano ka KaartE??
You got Natural Na Maarte. Sila ang mga NATURAL BORN na maarte. madaming naiinsecure sa kanila, madalas silang madaming kaaway.. pero who cares! natural yan lahat!

Gaano Kahaba Pasensya Mo?
MALA-PALITO NG POSPORO POSPORO Na madali magliyab. . . isang kiskis lang ayun mag aapoy na agad. Madali ka mabugnot! Minsan may time na kahit sa maliit na bagay lang naiirita ka na. AYAW MO NG PALIGOY-LIGOY. STRAIGHT TO THE POINT.

Taga Jose Rizal University ka ba?
isa ka sa mga heavy bomber,pep squad cheerleader, campus crush, dancer, beautiful,sexy and yummy girl, gwapingz, sikat sa room, dean's lister, var...sity, at iba pang di ko nabangit na pasikat. . hehe

Be a Balanced BAbe
A Little Mystery and Adventure. Anything that calls us to walk an unfamiliar path is an adventure?parachutes and snake-infested jungles are optional. If you feel like all your days have melted into a single day?same morning routine, same conversations, same regrets while you stare at the ceiling before you sleep, it?s time to choose the life less ordinary. You don?t need to travel far for an adventure?what?s different and daring could be waiting around the corner in a class, restaurant, or hobby you?ve been too scared to try; or even closer, inside you, like the fears you?ve been holding on to?of being judged, rejected, or alone. It?s usually things we don?t know that frighten us?and the only way to face them is to find out what they?re all about. As the great poet T.S. Eliot said, ?Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.? The next time the thought of something scares you, take a deep breath and go for it! Take more quizzes like this on Candymag.com

Does He Know You're Crushin' ?
Doubtful Dude.He sort of knows but he's not really sure. He knows there's something but not really sure if there's anything serious about it. So what should you do? Two options: Either you tell him straight up that you like him or just ignore it and enjoy his company as a great guy friend. Take more quizzes like this on Candymag.com

What inspirational word are you?
Commitment. You know exactly where your priorities lie, and you aren't afraid to put forth the effort to get where life wants to take you.

What Television Series Are You?
Gossip Girl.Spotted, your life's every detail in text messages to everyone's phone. You are very classy and determined. You keep up with all the latest ...fashion and news. You may not be the best at keeping things on the D.L . but you are very dependable to your family and friends. You are not one to be crossed, anyone who messes with you better watch their back. You always stick up for your friends no matter how far you need to go..

Girls?????

At my cousins home, one saturday night. We were watching how to lose a guy in 10 days. when my cousin's brother suddenly shows up with his guy friends. One of his friend commented on the movie as he had already watched it; he said "why are girls having their moodswings?" It let us pause and look at each other's eye as he was saying stuff. When my ate got annoyed, she turned off the tv, and get some nachos for us to eat.(huh?) As she puts the nachos on the table, I had the feeling that it will be a start of a riot. she said "cge nga, what can't you guys understand about us girls?, since nagiinarte ka diyan." What happened next was a pillow fight. Gladly, my aunt was not there, so no one will disturb us from having a sort of fun. At first, we thought that most of the questions will threw back at us, but the funny thing was, at the end of the "fun thing" we have seen ourselves favoring their side.

GIRLY THINGS that Baffle guys

>>Why is it that girls can't go to the 'CR' alone?
>>What's with the mood swings?
>>Why do girls wear a short-short/mini skirt outside, but gets mad whenever guys look and starts calling them "sexy"?
>>Why do girls love making jokes with guys but gets annoyed whenever the guy throw back jokes to the girl?
>>What's with the frequent change of mind?
>>Why do girls always asked if they are fat? and when you say that "she is not" she would accuse you as a liar but when you say she is, will get mad at you.
>>Why do girls always look at the mirror?
>>Why do girls love shopping?
>>Why do girls keep diaries/journal?


...if there are a lot of questions that baffles your mind...you are free to share it here...Same with your answers

WAHAHAHA

My friend txted me and he thought, i can't understand tagalog. So he's txting me using the english language. the funny thing was, he's really trying his best to have a long conversation with me, but then again, he can't help but use tagalog words in the middle of our conversation, and one tym i forgot that he didn't know such, i txted him using our own language. Wahahaha

Some funny sentence I've encountered during our conversation:

Zap guys, it's nice to back.

what you doing?

A One woman are there.

Good nice one!

A pleasant good morning'

i"m sorry, I can't came.

How your day?

Just a thought...

Bakit ganon yung majority ng students?? magaaral ng nursing, education, engineering, dito sa pilipinas tapos yung goal pala is dun magtrabaho sa abroad. Ayaw ba nila dito sa pilipinas din magwork,. mababa yung sahod, oo. pero diba nung mga bata pa tayo hanggang sa makatapos tayo ng highschool. Pag tinatanong tayo ng mga nakakatanda saten or kahit sino ng "BAKIT MO GUSTO MAGING NURSE, TEACHER, DOCTOR,o ENGINEER?" ang lagi nating sinasagot "para makatulong sa kapwa". pero Kapwa ano, tao or pilipino?. Kung passion naman talaga ng tao ang pagtuturo, paggagamot o kahit ano pa, hindi naman kelangan isipin yung money involved diba? ewan ko siguro dala lang din yun ng kahirapan dito sa pilipinas. Hindi naten sila masisisi. Kaya lang naisip ko kung ang perception ng majority dito ay ganon. Pano na lang yung future generation. Kung lahat ng magagaling magaabroad. Sino na magtuturo sa kanila. Ano na lang development ng country naten, pag wala na sila.

campus MADness

There is a MTV Concert today at our school, and I thought that the class was cut. The school president said that the class will be cut, but those who will have class after the concert, will not be excused if they didn't attend their respective classes. The concert then starts at almost 5 in the afternoon, I was in our classroom, having a hard time taking my quiz..hehe., I did txt one of my colleague if the concert was already started. And she said that yes, it was. I just waited for the bell to rang, for me to go at the concert to assist, but my glamour professor, didn't like joining such concert. When the bell rang it was 6:30 already I ran to the CSC office for me to help my co officers in assisting the guest, but then, everyone was sitting at one of the tables near the office. I asked them what to do,they said that "wala na, pahinga na kami." One of the officers asked me if i could join the game stuff which will be posted on the tv show. But then after I agree. My cousin(Ate) txted me that she will meet me at the small gate, I asked permission to the girl and our csc pres. that i will just meet my cousin at the smallgate, They all allow me though. At the small gate, my cousin just asked me on what time the concert will last. I just said she'll just meet me perhaps at 8:30pm. After we have talked, my friend asked me, if i could help her at the gym, because she's handling kids like me. hehe.. I ran to the gym for me to help her.when she dismissed the kids, we gone out of the gym, at the bridge. the girl saw us and said "oh, akala ko ba lumabas ka, tapos andito ka" i just said " oo, kanina lumabas ako." and you can see at her face that she doesn't want to believe in what i'm saying.

When I return to our office, everyone is soo busy including the girl, and they were like looking at me, with question that.. why is it that i'm not doing anything. Duh..i'm not assigned to do anything. I asked our adviser yesterday after the meeting, if what i will do at the concert, she'll just said, nothing, you'll just assist the audience. And after the concert, they were like it was a success, though there's a rain. Anyway,they have decided to cut the concert. because of that rain; Everyone got authographs, pictures and stuff from moymoypalboy, and other people in that industry.


>>I'm telling this because i am so disappointed about myself that i wasn't be able to help my co-officers to assist the program, for those reasons. And i'm so ashamed that I got one of the highest position now, and yet I didn't help in today's program. I feel that someone does feel disappointed on me too.

Moon Represents My Heart

I was watching "Devil Beside You" on Youtube. And one of the scene there has the background music of "Moon Represents My Heart". So when i hear it; out of nowhere I sang it also with feelings. haha And when I'm actually awake from my daydream. I just realized I know the song, and it feels that I've sang it somewhere. I just can't remember when, and where. So I keep on thinking and thinking; until one of my chinese friend txt me that day. And then, I figured I sang it during our Mandarin class.

Aww. I miss It. I miss learning Mandarin with Sun Jao shi and Wang Jao Shi. I remember those crazy words which I couldn't understand, those weird English, to which, whenever I ask my Jao shi something that I couldn't understand regarding the lesson I always end up to this words " Ok, nothing Jao Shi. Xiexie; Zaijian";because we couldn't understand each other.hehe, those special quizzes and open notes Exams. Of course I passed. No wonder I had a high grade..hahaha So we had this assignment which turned out to be an oral quiz?! We should Practice this song and sing it the next day. So the next day; Wang Jao Shi sing it first and we sing it individually after. And when I sing it; without knowing its' meaning my classmate say "you sang okay though." I must have a future as a singer, hehehe.Then when everybody was finished JaoShi translated the song, i liked it more. And I asked my friend to send to my phone her copy of that song through bluetooth; but then my phone was lost as well as the song. As days pass by; I forgot everything what's the song? How to sing it? Everything; not until I hear it again; which gives me a li'l flashback.=^_^=

So I want to share the song with you.

I was thinking maybe you want to sing along, Here are the lyrics: Both Hanyu Pinyin and English version. But the video is "Hanyu Pinyin."

Hanyu Pinyin

ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen
wo de qing ye zhen
wo de ai ye zhen
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen
wo de qing bu yi
wo de ai bu bian
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

* qing qing de yi ge wen
yi jin da dong wo de xin
shen shen de yi duan qing
jiao wo si nian dao ru jin

* ni wen wo ai ni you duo shen
wo ai ni you ji fen

* ** ni qu xiang yi xiang
ni qu kan yi kan
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

Repeat *

Repeat **

English Translation

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection is real.
My love is real.
The moon represents my heart.

You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you…
My affection does not waver,
My love will not change.
The moon represents my heart.

* Just one soft kiss
is enough to move my heart.
A period of time when our affection was deep,
Has made me miss you until now.

* You ask me how deep my love for you is,
How much I really love you.

* ** Go think about it.
Go and have a look [at the moon],
The moon represents my heart.

Repeat *

Repeat **

Is it nice? hehe.. I think It's cute... The moon represents my heart. But I like it most if it is "The star represents my heart because I'm a star..hehehe However I'm really disappointed because I found out that Kim Chiu sang that song. I hate her voice but i like her beauty. I'm in a good mood when i don't hear her voice...hehehehe

CHUckieme

'Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I’ve come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I’m a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life’s disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won’t be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wish for. Maybe you’ll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.'

"Invictus" (meaning "Invincible"):

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishment the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

–William Ernest Henley

I was watching One tree hill Season 6 Episode 5 and 6 a while ago. And it happens to strike me. Like a needle that has pinned to me little by little. So, out of nowhere my tears fall down. Maybe because; Some of the scenes' there were totally ad undeniably a scene inmy life. Here are some lines that strikes me BIGTIME!!

Lucas Scott: I wish I can take this pain away. I can't. I'm sorry "The hardest part of saying goodbye; is, having to do it again. Every single day;" Every day we face the same truth. That life is bleeding. That our time here is short; And in order to move on. We must live our own lives well.

Anyway, It so happen that I can't find what Brooke had said in the scene so I've decided to just insert a video clip that tells something about what I feel. It is on the "STUCK" part

every year!

Every year, I feel like I am a Freshman

Why? That is because,

Every year, my friends are the graduating ones.

Every year, I have all the "NEW"

New Friends, New Professors, New Clothes and of course New Life

Every year, I need to move forward;

From What? (As you might Ask)

From everything that's happening to my life.

The sudden Experience

The sudden Changes and

The sudden Goodbyes

Its' not easy of course

Its' like you're writing a book

Then, Suddenly, the computer shuts down

And apparently, you don't happen to save it

And you need to do it again!

From Scratch

Its' Like I'm making my own life

Again, From Scratch

At first, I won't know how to start building my life

But as time goes by

I know, I will know how to start Building it

Everything all over again

Now, What I need to do

Is Find the starting point

The start where and why everything

Flows not in a way that I wanted to

And then from there,

I will Change it

I will Change the way I look about it

And when I do Such

I will be formed again,

As a Newly born Individual

Not a Freshman anymore

But as a "FRESH" man

Who will bring

All the "NEW"

In this crazy

And unpredictable

WORLD...

Days to Forget...=,(

New Year came and it was a really great blast for me. It was a year I thought I’d be best of. It was a year wherein happy memories should be remembered. As I looked at it, everyday has been on its place, same routine, same smiles, and sometimes more smiles than usual and same bonding. But, as February came, every expectation that I had in mind, suddenly change, little by little; I don’t know how it started, or maybe I know. I just don’t want to admit it, but it actually happened. And I can’t do anything for it to stop.

February 19, 2009 at around 5:30pm was the beginning of my detrimental days. It was the day where I’ve got the worst of the worst. Why? Because I just got lost my cell phone, my usb, my ccard, my u.n.o pass card, my money and some of my professor’s’ receipts at the library. I was actually preparing for a quiz that day which I thought, will happen the next day.Honestly, I only noticed that my cell phone was lost; when I plan to text my mom, to tell her that I will gone home late, because I’ve a meeting to attend to, and when I am looking for it. It was totally and undeniably not there. I cried of course, for the reason that. I’m cool of losing everything inside it, but losing my usb that was a gift of my best brother ever on my debut, as well as my cell phone which I bought to him was off to be grieve at. It was a treasure that I took good care for a year and then in just a clicked it vanished like a bubbles in the wind. It was one of my prized possessions since then though.

February 20, 2009 I thought I had moved on to what had happened to me a day before this day. But I learned that it’s’ not as easy as I think it is. Of course, day and night, I get the best sermon that I should get from my parents. Every word awakens me, from thinking my lost and not found things. I come to school with a little brevity in my face, but before the day ends, another worst thing happened. I got dizzy, for the fact that, I only ate my lunch; without a snack time after and a dinner. I concealed everything with a happy face, so I can use my energy for good, like being a sort-of-a-tour-guide of students from BJHS (if I’m not mistaken) around the campus. Of course, I had done a great job. Nevertheless, after an immense work, all the pretensions, that I can still do all my work done; also lasted. My dizziness worsens, till I should be stuck at the clinic for almost one hour.I tried to sleep but I feel pain somewhere in my head that akin to a bird destroying a wood using its’ beak. Being a prodigal being, I got out of the room and after vomiting, didn’t return back. Evidently, I go home for a full amount of rest.

“He who does not weep does not see.” Les miserables the miserable one

February 21, 2009was the day, where I feel again the things that I felt during last years’ unexpected exhibit. The peculiar feeling of jealousy and enviousness; I tried to hide it to the people close to me, so they will not get worried on my peculiar feeling. And it actually works. My happy face made them believed that I’m okay, despite the fact that I’m not. As the day started, I thought same things will happen, them, talking to me with delight, but there was a strange thing. They are all busy with their own thing that made me feel so sad. So what I did, I go to the DSA office and stay there for a while. Then, they didn’t still notice me like before. Having that ambiance makes me sober, and made me think unwanted things. I stayed up at the High School Stairs reminiscing things with the same situations, and after a while, I cried. Viewing, why are these things happening? So going back to where I’d gone, still nobody notice that somethings’ wrong. They invited me to have lunch which gives me a grin knowing I was remembered. As we were at the cafeteria, I still feel the tension, the quiet atmosphere. Gladly, my best brother’s’ mother came and asked me of what had happened to me last time (when I lost my cell phone). She gave me an idea of where to go, so I could keep everything inside of me. So while my friends were at the catwalk of the stage, I reasoned that I will just go at the DSA Office to get my bag then I’ll come back after, it is partly true, but I didn’t go there, for a reason. Instead, I did go at my brother’s’ mom’s’ office and stay there for an hour, for me to be relieved. I was expecting that. I, being gone at their side will be a signal for them to look for me, but they didn’t. ‘A’ does txt me, yes, got a grin again. But my point was; ‘A’ is not my closest friend. She is my friend but closest will be soon to follow. Then, she’s the one who looks for me. It’s not like before. That every time I wasn’t there, they will look for me and text me of where am I. Going back at the CSC office, Nobody still notice me, not until I say hi to them, and borrowed a charger. They let me borrow it for a minute though. I had gone to the stage then, because finally I had been noticed. But being there, I still feel different things, so I decided to ran out again, ‘KRR’ arrives though and he was just the only one who ask me of where am I going, and as they tease me, that they will hand me the grasshopper, he’s the only one who asks me to stay with them. ‘AJ’ asked me to join them at their house, I hug her tight as I see her and I said to her that “I will miss her.” Expecting her, to ask me why I’m like that? ‘KS’ came and partially removed pessimistic thoughts in my mind. There, at the cafeteria, I sat down at one of the chairs, asking my companions to sit beside me, but it seems that, they didn’t hear me. So, I just remain quiet still. Therefore, when all of us finally gathered at the table, I just borrowed a PSP and a headphones to my Kuya. Then, I made a joke that I didn’t know how to use the headphones, so they will notice me. In that case, they had help me; as they were talking, I’m just there quiet as I could be, concentrating on playing at ‘KS’s’ PSP. ‘M’, my pink sister, was then asked by ‘KS’ to withdraw the checked so that after they had eaten their food, he can get ‘M’s’ money for U.N.O. So my sister left at the cafeteria, asked me if I will join them, but I did refused; As I called one of ‘KS’s’ friend Ate, who is just a freshmen. He said that, “why are you calling her that? you’re older than her.” I just said “you said I’m the BUNSO.” At that moment, he said “No, you’re not a BUNSO. for us powerhouse, YES you are but…”. After he had said that, all my grief that has been kept for almost a day began to explode, I cried a lot. Knowing I’m not the BUNSO anymore. ‘M’ came back and asked why I am crying, then again, upon telling the reason, I cried again, from it, I think ‘M’ noticed that somethings’ bothering me. She said “I know, something bothers you, I’ll talk to you when you are okay.”

==== Yes, true of a fact ‘M’ was right; all the changes happened during the day bothers me a lot. Okay, I admit I lack attention, so when I get it, I treasured it to the fullest. I really feel so important whenever they give me such. It might be selfish, as you look at it, but for me, It’s’ not. I just want to have one. Moreover, getting one is a really a Big Deal for me. You know my story. They say; I’m emotional and sensitive. And sometimes my doings are misunderstood. Some people might think that, I just do these kinds of eerie things for me to get noticed by them. Not really, as I say. I’m a bubbly person; you can ask anyone who knew me. I’m a brat: I easily get jealous and insecure. But little by little I changed my brat like attitude coz it’s not good. I live by people who come in and out of my life. I sometimes wear a happy mask, so they will be okay too. Sadly, knowing you’re okay, no one might say to you “you’re not okay, I know you, and I can see it in your eyes, you can’t fool me by such a grinning mask.” I miss you guys a lot, I miss

everything that we usually do;

I miss the care that you always

showed me.

What happened to that?

I MISS YOU BIG====

These things remind me of the death of ‘Q’ in One Tree Hill, The voice over said there:

“Quentin Fields was a basketball player. He was also a son. A brother. Somebody’s teammate. And somebody’s friend. I never knew Quentin Fields. And I guess I never will.

GRIEF is like the ocean, it’s deep, and dark and bigger than all of us. And PAIN is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time, and faith and love. I didn’t know Quentin Fields. BUT I’M JEALOUS OF HIM, BECAUSE, I SEE HOW HIS ABSENCE HAS AFFECTED THE PEOPLE WHO DID KNOW HIM. SO I KNOW HE MATTERED TO THEM. AND I KNOW HE WAS LOVED.”

Siblings By Nature....

From the day they had graduated, I never thought that I could find friends again, for the reason that there’s nobody left in our organization and I didn’t even know someone who is still in that field. Not until I met those five people (Monique, Ate joy, Jorelle, Rem-rem and Ate Karen), whom I feel at ease with, I know they can catch up with my weirdness and childlike attitude. Seeing them for the first time alarmed me, “this is the answer to what my kuya had told me during my debut.” Meeting them is like meeting the powerhouse. It is very unexpected. Honestly, I never thought that we will be as close as what we are today. And I’m thankful that we clicked.

It is funny whenever I think of them. They were very young and I’m like their younger sister! Maybe you are thinking right now, how it happened and if it is possible? It’s true that you can really learn from the youngsters. 17 years of my life, I’m just a home-school-home kind of girl. I never experienced discovering things. Yet, today, that I’m 18 years old, they helped me discover things, things that I never thought I could discover and could have tried. Honestly, from the day it all started (the discovering thing), I almost initiate hanging out with them, whenever I wanted to. As day passed by, all the stories up my sleeves has been shared to them. I’m their little princess. And I’m really happy and thankful that they treat me that way. I always dream of having siblings who can take good care of me as a princess. Meeting them makes me feel blessed, knowing my dreams start to finally happen. Though we are not brothers and sisters by blood, I always make it a point that in my heart and in my mind they are my brothers and sisters. With them, I feel safe and loved. I belong again, as I say! It is the same story as the powerhouse, but now that we part ways, those five people fill-in my sadness and loneliness. Now, I’m afraid of losing them too, I’m afraid that all these things will come to an end, and most of all I’m afraid of being alone again! I honestly don’t want people I cherish so much to leave me again.

It’s hard being alone, especially when you’re used of having someone who ruined your normal day with their abnormality. All my happy memories have been shared with them. I really hope that all these things will be treasured always and forever. Everyday I’m so excited to go to school, for me to see them at the Council Office. Then, from there, we will make fun of others’ secretly, we don’t want to be in trouble of course. Monikers’ started to burst out like Memo, BNB, Boss, Yahoo and so on. We can also come up to a new segue, for the reason that people tend to commit errors and do telepathic communication. I guess we are well-trained by my kuya who can criticize every single error that he could find. Lastly, Invented hand signals are practiced by many. All these things I learned will surely be learned by the next people who will meet people like them, and everything that they will learn from each other will inspire them to live life to the fullest. As they inspire me. It’s a wonderful feeling when people give you importance. It’s very overwhelming that if we are not complete none of the plans will happen, I don’t know. I guess everything fall out the way I wanted it to be. All the laughter and the sadness that I felt are worth showing. I may not be fond of saying what I feel but I know in their hearts that they happy with me too. The way I am with them. So this is how it feels to have siblings huh! Someone’s looking for you when you are not around, someone checks on you when you don’t feel good, someone protects you, someone cheers you up when your down, someone trust you, someone shows you the right paths and someone who will make you feel that you’re not alone. For once, there will be no what ifs because everything has been fulfilled.

Friendship Never Ends....

It’s almost nine months since the powerhouse graduated. From then, there was never a day that I never think of them and there was never a day that I never miss them. The first few days were really hard for me. Especially when all the things I see at school reminds me of them. Seeing group of students hanging out at the Cafeteria and at the CSC make me smile and get envied knowing we used to be those students who spend most of our time at CSC and Cafeteria doing what we used to do, making fun at each others’ mistakes, telling our own stories and lastly criticizing professors and co-students. Laughing at Kuya Sonny’s criticisms, Ate Denise being always late at class and at our meetings, Ate Paola’s little patience and little eyes, and Ate Rezzelle’s meowmeow – these are the things that I really miss. I remember during my 18^th birthday party, Kuya Sonny told me that “You should find friends who will lead you the way we led you”. And that’s what I’m doing right now. They really taught me a lot of things.

Things I learned since the powerhouse graduated:

1. If a couple of strangers are destined to be friends, they are going to be friends.(Ate Den)

2. Parting ways doesn’t necessarily mean “GOODBYE”. Sometimes it is a test of knowing how strong your friendship is.

3. Keeping in touch is really important

4. Being the President of COMMARTS can make you grow insane.

5. Library and Webster has been my best friends.

6. Cafeteria is not that nice to hang out at (if I’m not with them).

7. Council Office is the much wanted place to hangout.

8. Powerhouse is unbreakable by time and distance.

9. Carbonara, Palabok, and Special Spaghetti are really the BEST.

10. Mr. Barrientos is THE BEST mentor and adviser.

11. One Tree Hill and Powerhouse is the same.

12. Being a tambay doesn’t necessarily make you Jologs (ate Den).

13. Compliment from the same professors they had is overwhelming.

14. They really give considerations to smart students.

15. Criticisms are oh so funny.

16. Karen, Paola, Rezelle, Sonny, and Denise are Friends “always and forever”

Sooper delayed..hahaha

Everyone is looking forward for Christmas since it is a season of love, sharing, and giving. Countdown is really normal which starts when the so-called “ber” months come in. Months had passed and December finally came and the countdown begins that really excites people more and more. Wish lists already ready and so are the food for the Noche Buena. Godparents start to play hide and seek to their godchildren. Haha! Just kidding (but in reality, and at some point I know, I’m right).

Christmas plays a big part on everybody since it’s the birthday of our Lord Jesus Christ. And since we’re talking about Jesus Christ, let me share you a story. I attended a mass last year, 20^th of December if I’m not mistaken, and the sermon really amazed me. The priest discussed about Christmas of course, but not “Christmas” the event but “Christmas” the word. He said that texting really influenced the people. Why? Because when we are texting we tend to shorten the words and when we get used to it, we almost apply it to our everyday living. So how does that relate to Christmas? Having got used to shortening words, we tend to apply it when we greet people through text, cards, emails, and gifts. We tend to write “Merry Xmas” which the priest said was very improper. Then the priest related it by talking about Mathematics; being “X” is an unknown variable – unknown meaning unfamiliar, strange, and so on. Therefore, when you use that in greeting someone, you tend to lose the real meaning of it, which is in the first six letters of the word, which is “Christ”. Amazing isn’t it? Honestly, I’m one of those people who tend to greet using the “Xmas” thing. Funny but true, thanks to my favorite priest, from then, I never tend to greet “Xmas”, since I never forget what he had told us during the mass.